I barely remember the days and weeks that came after my daughter was born. I was exhausted, stressed beyond belief, my whole world had been turned upside down. I didn’t know what such exhaustion existed until she was born.
Now I’m 28 weeks pregnant, and I feel that level of exhaustion.
And that terrifies me.
I’ve had people tell me that third trimester exhaustion is worse than newborn exhaustion, but I find that so hard to believe. E woke up on an hourly basis some nights, sometimes she didn’t go to sleep for 6 hours, and when she did, she only slept for two. It was torture. It was legitimately torture. I absolutely hated those first months of her life.
I’m not going to lie, I’m terrified of doing all that again, especially with a 20 month old to look after.
Thankfully, E did let me have a 3 hour nap today. It was incredible. I just hope she keeps it up when I really need it. I also hope that the universe rewards me with a good sleeping newborn. I got kinda ripped off with the first kid, even if she’s amazing now.